This pup can often find him surprised by how a particular song can reach you at the right time, and suddenly you ‘get it’. I had this experience with a cover of Cindy Lauper’s Time after Time. Hearing it made me shed a tear.
If you’re lost you can look and you will find me Time after time If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting Time after time
The song feels special because I know that there are times when I do get depressed and sad, the feeling can be close to being lost, and without direction and focus. While the feeling does pass, my Master is always been there for me, making sure that I’m looked after, that I’m healthy - ensuring that I’m supported and loved. It’s hard for him because there isn’t always a clear way of helping - and yet, he is always there for me. Always. That means so much for me.
There are times where I don’t feel worthy of that kind of patience from him. I grateful for every day he does. As I believe that I’ve mentioned before, with the submissive head-space comes a feeling of unworthiness - in these instances one needs to have faith your Master has in you - let it be an anchor point.
At the same time, I sincerely hope that I can be the same for him. A constant, supportive, loving presence in a long life together. That through every big and little change, through every time we rise up to our best, and for every time we stumble - we will always have eachother.
At a time where my view of the future is met by a lot of uncertainty, I know for sure that the one thing I’m most excited for is sharing the future with you - Master and his always loving, loyal and obedient pup.
Thank you, pup.
I’m trying. Still learning new ways to make you happy after five years.
